BACKSTABBER

I think, all of us encountered this kind of human.

And my story? It was ridiculous.

Funny. After all the real goodness I showed to this person, my honesty and sincerity. I can't believe it. Para lang makuha nya yung gusto nyang pansin at attention from those persons who are more close to me than her, she let me so deep DOWN. She really crushed me into pieces. IT HURTS & it really broke me, I WAS SHATTERED.

I dunnow how should I call myself. I always trust a person so much. So much that even I tell my whole life, no secrets, I show all my kindness and even show how crazy I am. But in the end, toot.. toot. toot.. BLAG!

I have never imagined before that I will actually came across with this kind of person. I don't know why, and I don't know how they can cook  a story to bring out a sour dish to make people hate me. (Cook ang term ko kasi they pick a topic then add ingredients, even add stuffs that should not be added) Such a BAD CHEF huh!

I trusted this person, even pity her! She felt left out, and Unloved by the person she need the most. She told me everything and even cried in front of me. To cheer her up, I always tell my story, my Ups and Downs. I went to her when I need a hand to help me out, she tried her best to help me. That was I know. She tried her best to help me. Ang di ko alam. She was trying her best to Ruined me.

Before,  have no idea why she did that. But I realized afterwards. Then, I pity her. She was full of jealous and envious. Ginawa nya  yon para magmuka syang mabait sa taong gusto nyang mapalapit sakanya. Siniraan nya ko. Simpleng simple. Binabaligtad nya mga sinasabi ko. And pag kaharap nya ako, siniraan naman nya yung tao na yun.

There are numbers of people na nagalit sakin, but eventually, they have learned the truth. Except for only 1 person. That is her MWP (Most wanted person). Matagal na kasi nya gusto mapalapit sa taong yon. She felt na hindi sya mahal nito kasi she didn't get much attention from her. Ang bait ko.
In the end, naisip ko. Siguro ako yung way para magkalapit sila. And yeah, they become close. I am happy then. Hindi ko na siniwalat ang mga kasinungalingan nya. Even this one person hated me for no valid reason, tinanggap ko kahit masakit. Ayoko na sirain ang ngayon palang nagsisimulang magandang relation between them.

Masakit lang kasi, after long years? I tried to forgive her, even the pain is still there. But,
she stabbed me for the second time. And this time, I don't even know what should I call her.

Alam mo yung tipong 

"Wag nyo nalang ipapaalam na sinabi ko, sana satin satin nalang, ayokong magalit sya sakin, hayaan nalang natin.. ako nalang and iintindi at magpapasensya.." (With an abandoned-cat-face-style). F**k! Sya pa daw ang iintindi? at magpapasensya? Saan?? Anong ginawa ko?! 

Scary di ba?? Ganyan sila! Ganyan ka nila dudurugin. 

Then when she turn to your face. (With a sheep-looking-innocent-face) 

"Nako, alam mo, ganon talaga yun, wag mo nalang pansinin. Luluha ka ng dugo dun".

She already have her MWP in her life. And this person hated me much for the second time.
Ok lang sana e, but it is quite a complex situation. I will bump into her whether I like it or not. No matter how hard I tried to please her (si MWP nya) of course, she won't believe me 'cause she hates me. And there's nothing I can do for her to like me. I felt that no matter what I do, in her eyes, MALI lahat yon. No Exception. I accept that, it is her opinion anyway.

Balik tayo kay backstabber.
Before, I really wanna slap her and prove to them na mali sya. Gusto ko din putulin ang sinungaling nyang dila! Plastik to the Highest level! Grabe attitude nya. Immature. Liar. Backstabber. Inggitera. Paawa effect. Blamer. waaaah! lahat na nasakanya! Sana magbago pa sya.. I pity her for being unhappy. I believe that once you are breaking someone's heart, ruining someone's life, it means you're not happy with your own life.

For now on, I will think like how my husband think. "Just ignore them. Just Don't care"
As long as you think you're not doing anything wrong, you don't have to defend yourself.
Even they stabbed you a hundred times, don't let them affect you.

I have learned from my experiences that you don't have to adjust a lot, or to change yourself so people will like you. The people who truly loves you, will accept who you are no matter what!

And as I know, one day, they will learn the truth. they will realize all those stupid things they have done and will eventually regret it..

Is it hard to raise a baby away from your Partner?

... How should I start? Hindi na yata ko sanay magBLOG. >.<

Well, yeah, 3 or 4 years since my last blog huh.. and now, I have a 1 year old beautiful daughter ~_^

Isn't she pretty? Look at my own pic, hurry!
What??! Doesn't look like me huh? --- big YEAH. my hubby's look alike, 98%. Most people say, at least she got your gender. LOL

Why I am raising her away from hubby?
NO no, we're not separated. and BIG NO that he left us!
any other answer? .....yeah! your thought is just absolutely right! He's working abroad =)
The fact that you NEED a partner to raise your kid, is, 100% true, but, as a MOM, as a wonder mom, Super MOM, it is possible to raise her into a fine child, a good child, a loving daughter / son even miles away from him.

To tell you the truth? After almost 5 months of separation (I mean, I resigned from my work in Macau and went back to Phil then left him work there alone), I thought that our baby would not come near him the first day that they meet again. My baby was almost 8 months old when we went back to Phil, and my husband came home when she was 1 yr old. But what happened? She just stared at his daddy's face wondering, then later on, she go and play with him!

We fetched him from NAIA 3

That was not really surprising though! But the following days? There were times that she don't want to go away from her dad, even I personally getting her from him, even his Lolo tatay and tito ninongs who were her BESTFRIENDS in strolling? He don't go with them when she is with her daddy. She just love to be carried by her dad. Wow.. That was really amazing. A real daddy's girl!

I knew the reasons why.

Why my baby still recognize his dad, still feel his dad.. It's just simply because he is just literally away, but not REALLY. He's just always "here". The moment that he wakes up in the morning, he will say hello to us in viber, or skype, or wechat! His company break time, he is spending his 30 mins chatting with us. Even the time he is waiting for the bus to go home, he's chatting. The moment he arrive the house, enters the room, or go to bed. He will tell us. And even the most boring and even the funniest event of the day, he doesn't miss to tell! That is how he handle us, even miles apart, he NEVER let us feel it. That is why I can raise my child unafraid. He always let us feel that he's just right beside us.. watching us.. guiding us.. supporting us.

And for that, I am so thankful. I'm thankful that I do not feel alone. I feel like we're still together and helping each other out.. and my answer to my Blog's question is = NO. It depends. and in my case, it is a big NO. And I hope some couples away from each other can learn something from this. Just be strong, and trust each other. You're tied as one, and you will never be apart.

Family who trust one another and have faith in each other, stays together, stays FOREVER!

See?